Bad day

I am feeling very down today. The sadness started last night, and has continued on to today. I'm just so tired. I want to give up. The emotional toll TTCing is taking on me is more than I can handle. I am so very tired of getting my hopes up to ovulate, only to see my temps go down instead of up. I'm tired of every day's mood being set by what my temperature was that morning. I'm tired of having the EWCM without ovulation. I'm tired of seeing the days go on and knowing that we are getting closer and closer to the one year anniversary of TTCing without any child(ren) on the way. I am so angry that my body absolutely refuses to work. I'm mad because I want a baby so badly, and DH is actually telling me that he wants a baby so badly (he usually doesn't say much about it...I think he's verbalizing it because we're both getting so impatient and disheartened). I want to give up so badly but I'm so afraid that the second we stop trying, I'll ovulate and we'll have missed our chance. I cannot keep doing this. It hurts too much.