No change

I'm trying to be hopeful about the Paxil, but I honestly don't feel any different yet. I realize it can take up to eight weeks to see a noticeable difference, but I'm getting impatient. I noticed a difference right away with the Pristiq, but nothing's changed so far. I still panic when Matthew works a 7am-3pm shift and I'm home by myself with the baby. I know that I'll get through it just fine, but that trepidation is still there. I think much of my problem is that I'm just so tired all the time, and it seems like the PPD manifests itself primarily when I'm not at my best physically. I feel like all I want to do when I'm home is sleep, and I get frustrated when I'm tired and Noah's not. Lately we've been taking naps together on the couch. I enjoy doing that, but I just wish I enjoyed spending time with Noah all the time.

I finally had my first PP AF. I'd had some EWCM for a few days, but didn't think much of it. Then the spotting started a few weeks later (I think...I honestly don't know how long my LP was). It's not been that bad, but I'm disappointed that it's back already. I'd heard that EBFing would keep AF away for a good while, so I thought I had at least another couple of months of freedom. I guess now that Noah's sleeping longer stretches at night, my body's getting itself back in order. How sad is it that I'd love for my PCOS to kick in so I wouldn't have to bother with AF until we were TTC again?